Discussions from Within

Float me on out to sea; I can’t help you believe.

Lay with me and help me breathe;

Have you forgotten thee?

Cast out those judgements harbored within your soul;

Am I one of the chosen few who are permitted to grow old?

Grant me rest and wisdom on how to proceed with your test,

Or abandon me to the shadows like all the rest…

Oscillate through time, yet you can still rhyme

What does that say about my mind?

Even more, what will I find if I allow myself permission to mine?

Of course, this would need to be discussed and allotted the proper amount of time.

Yes, remind me again of the total sum of time from which I may begin to divide?

This request is asinine; you use your wits, once more, only to hide.

I sense a temper rising to the surface and I’m unclear whether or not it’s actually mine.

Are you sure you’re the one who is doing fine?

Don’t mind me; for you mustn’t forget that you were the one who lost the initial key.

Remember your journey that resulted in your divine plea?

In honesty, I don’t because I have let those memories run free,

But now I see that they have encircled you as ghosts circling around the base of a tree.

You must release me!

Is this your turn at making a kind of plea?

I’m not sure if you’re ready yet or whether you’ll merely flee.

Oh, how quaint; you reflecting once more of what it’s all for

How much I adore your lofty philosophical musings; tell me again the story of how you will use them?

In a similar manner to how I use my limbs, but I suppose this too is too imaginative for you my lost friend.

Have you made any attempts to mend what we lost when we alone were left to fend?

I have not, and I will not even attempt to pretend because it is I within whom you are living in.

There you go again with your delusional grandiosity of thinking that you’ll win.

Tell me how it’s been attending to your body, again?

Societal Observations

I have spent too much time observing human behavior, especially on social media platforms, and here are my takeaways at this moment in time:

That resisting medicine is heroism, but so too is embracing it; that freedom of religion means deciding how others should practice theirs; that the goal of a vocation is to someday not have one; that one’s freedom of speech is to defend one’s right to avoid thinking.

That righteousness is determined by the admiration of others; that education is to avoid the uncomfortableness of inconvenient truths; that entitlement is the issue, unless you’re the beneficiary.

That to be a patriot is to be unreflective to the point of resisting change; and that to be woke is to be engrossed with change to the point of being outraged by the shortcomings of others—both in the name of freedom. This is what I have seen, and I laughed.

This was inspired by the observations of Soren Kierkegaard during his time:

“When I was young, I forgot how to laugh in the cave of Trophonius; when I was older, I opened my eyes and beheld reality, at which I began to laugh, and since then, I have not stopped laughing. I saw that the meaning of life was to secure a livelihood, and that its goal was to attain a high position; that love’s rich dream was marriage with an heiress; that friendship’s blessing was help in financial difficulties; that wisdom was what the majority assumed it to be; that enthusiasm consisted in making a speech; that it was courage to risk the loss of ten dollars; that kindness consisted in saying, “You are welcome,” at the dinner table; that piety consisted in going to communion once a year. This I saw, and I laughed.”

A Return to the Beginning

We start our journey today with a different approach to writing, so I want to set the initial expectation for this piece of writing as one of being-in-process; that is, I am process writing, and you are reading with my flow of consciousness (for the most part).

My issue with writing is typically, when I want to write, I fail to think of a topic worthy of the time and effort needed for writing. Although, when speaking casually with family, friends, or colleagues, I have an abundance of topics that I wish, at the time, to write about further in the future. When the future comes, I feel stagnated, and often, this is enough to stop me from taking the initial actions necessary to express myself in written form.

As I reflect on this issue with writing, I am reminded of how frequent and ubiquitous this issue is—not the issue of writing hesitancy—the issue of being unable to think of the intermediate parts and/or the end products for a given flow; thus, this mental poverty provides me with the justification never to start the task.

In some ways, what I am referring to sounds almost like a self-fulling prophecy (and it possibly is). Nevertheless, whether what I am describing is precisely defined in the term self-fulling prophecy or my description is something similar but not yet encapsulated in static language makes no difference.

Words or phrases are just shorthand signifiers for the broader definition or concept that they represent, so in this case, I am more focused on analyzing the definition of the phenomenon I am describing and less focused on what symbol (word) is used to signify the concept that I wish to explore.

On a brief aside, what I have outlined above regarding language can be, crudely, summed up as bottom-up (definition to corresponding word/symbol) and top-down (word/symbol to definition through derivation). These terms bottom-up/top-down are used in a variety of domains and relate to many aspects of life; however, I am using them in the specific context of language.

I say this to take a second aside to briefly address how these two directions of language processing contribute to the ongoing, intensifying social-media-fueled cultural wars here in the United States. Social media floods our senses with sights and sounds, even physical sensations to a less direct degree, that are consumed with such frequency and quantity that our brains have become desensitized, to some extent, to the valuation of symbols—including words. Prior to social media and/or the internet, written symbols were not available to be consumed almost constantly and instantaneously, much less was there such an accessible avenue that allowed for these written expressions to become interactive with the engagement of others. Therefore, the abundance of symbols available in the modern age lessens the value of each individual symbol, at least, based on the principles of supply and demand ecnomics.

Even writing those last few sentences became complicated for me to track my initial point and how that corresponded to the intermediate point and the end conclusion. And, alas, we have returned from our aside movements to the opening example.

In my initial example describing my personal challenges with the writing process, I avoided taking the initial actions of preparing the necessary conditions for writing the intermediate parts and end products by using the excuse that I cannot think of these subsequent steps and, therefore, do not have sufficient cause to begin the endeavor.  

As much as I may wish that this issue mattered on an individual level, it truly does not. Still, when this same type, or form, of issue is amplified to the context of the structure of social media interactions in general, then there is likely something meaningful to analyze in the dynamics and constituents of this process.

To practice what I hope to preach, I want to be clear in defining the way in which I am using the constituent elements involved in my subsequent analysis.

First, I am defining social media as any platform or website that allows for interactions with other entities. Additionally, I am defining the internet as the broad physical and virtual infrastructure that forms the network that includes social media. The physical body can provide an analogy to better illustrate these concepts before continuing: The internet is the system and social media the various nodes. For specificity and foreshadowing future analogies, this can best be conceptualized thinking of the lymphatic system and the lymph nodes distributed within this system.

Second, starting with the definition, I am describing a process that operates in a sequential order flowing from the initial conditions, to the intermediate parts, to the end product; this process is scale-independent, meaning it can operate and can be applied to any level of a system (e.g., simple to complex, micro to macro, possibly part to whole – though this will be affirmed or negated through analysis).

Unfortunately, I lack a shorter term to function as a signifier for this definition in my vocabulary at present. Therefore, I will take the liberty of creating a term that I believe corresponds to the above description (I am open to alternative ideas).

Tripartite Flow is the term I believe best describes this particular definition in the specific way I intend to utilize it. To further elucidate the core concept that I am describing, here are a few familiar definitions similar to what I am referring to: Story – beginning, middle, and end; Time – past, present, and future.

Additionally, the body can offer another useful analogy for the concept of Tripartite Flow: One way neurons communicate with one another is through action potentials which are impulses that stimulate a cascade of events to occur that result in the transmission of information. In this example, the action potential is the intermediate step because once it is triggered, the transmission will produce an electrical impulse to move across the cell’s axon; however, the initial condition that must be present for an action potential ever to occur is a stimulus that is powerful enough to surpass the threshold potential to activate (a) the subsequent steps of action potential (b), and information transmission (c).

Before concluding this preliminary deliberation, I want to acknowledge that it is quite likely that much of what I have defined above may already have field-specific definitions (e.g., in the field of philosophy, psychology, biology, etc.). However, through today’s writing, I have realized that one of the purposes for this type of writing is to free myself personally from becoming bogged down with fretting about using the correct nomenclature. Instead, aware of the risk of possibly repeating elements of the work of others, I have chosen to engage in a stream of active deliberation that has produced fruits that are at least novel to myself. Moreover, this initial writing, both with its content and in its style, has provided a foothold for future writings, as I realized during the process how the various topics that continually manifest in my speech could be expressed through the written word if I remove some of the mental barriers imposed on myself that are limiting my expression.